It's been over 2 years since I've gone a week without blogging.

Hmmm.

Well I guess it's time to break the silence. I'm over it. Right now I'm just generally ancy. Been stressed out too long. Got fifty million irons in the fire and four hundred ninety-nine thousand, nine hundred and ninety-nine of them belong to work. So I'm officially saying it. FUCK IT.

I'm out.

Wednesday is March 1st and that's the day I get to start sending out resumes. Last August that seemed forever away, but here we are. The job I have now's a tough job and somebody's gotta do it. But that somebody's not gonna be me anymore. The system's broken and I can't fix it. I'm tired of being cranky, tired, and stressed out. I'm tired of having 175/100 blood pressure. And if I can get things in order I'll quit before May and figure out the last couple of weeks of school.

I officially can't take it anymore.

Over.

Goody good gumdrops!

Say it out loud. It'll make you happy.

That reminds me of this story I heard at the office a couple of weeks ago. One of the workers was taking a 13 year old girl to a group home... she was crying hysterically in the back seat. A fellow worker was accompanying her in the passenger seat and kept telling the girl to "say MONKEY! Come on! Say it!" The girl just kept crying and the worker said why in the hell did you tell her to say monkey? And the other worker said, I dunno. It works with 3 year olds. If they're crying and you can get them to say MONKEY, they'll stop. It's a funny word. They stop crying.

Mmm hmmm. So next time your sad. Say monkey. Or just think about Helen Keller's poor dog who ran away.

I love my sister. I miss her.

Anywho, I'm drunk and I wrote half of my comps tonight. Good stuff. I always write better with a smidgen of help. Hopefully it makes sense. Anyways, it's off to V town tomorrow where I get to hypothetically wear my BIG RED A. I just want one of those Boland shirts that says I AM THAT GIRL. That's all I need.

Anyway, it's time to make my nightly phone call and hit the hay. Have a safe one.

I'm out like trout!

Open Invite

I'm making chili tonight. I think the Miller's may be joining me and anybody else who wants some is more than welcome to join! We've got Jager, Crown, Kaluah, Bailey's, and whatever else you wanna bring!

The Times Record News

Looks like all that hard work's starting to pay off... I'm proud of my boys!

Well, it's been an interesting 2 days in Tulsa. I learned how to dodge a defense attorney in a cross examination and also learned that there is an indian tribe called the Passamaquoddy tribe. Wasn't that the name of the town in Puff the Magic Dragon??

Training pretty much sucked. But the hotel was nice. Who knew the double tree gave you free cookies? Yum.

Anyway, I've been home a total of like 8 hours (and I spent those sleeping) since last wednesday. And now I'm off to see Maroline and eat her food and drink her frosty beverages. It's going to keep me from stressing out about how sucky the rest of this week is going to be.

Oh. And Ms. Gaylor is going to be in town this weekend. Come out and buy her and her freshly brain-surgeried boyfriend a round. :)

Good times!

For everyone having a less than desirable Valentine's Day...

I feel ya.

well. i'm back.

ugh.

i'm not going to worry about tomorrow, because losing sleep over it won't change a thing that's going to happen. it's still gonna suck though.

this week was great. i got to spend like a million hours in the mountains with the boy i love. we did a lot in our short time there. and i went to my first catholic mass. he was pretty comfortable with all the sitting standing sitting standing and talking in the middle of the scripture reading and the AND ALSO WITH YOU bit, but i just felt really confused. and i left thinking, damn, i wish our church services were that short...

we saw some really old buildings, supposedly the oldest house in america, and we went to a community theater performance. we ran into some of the actors the night after in a bar that apparently jessica simpson is filming a movie scene in tuesday.

we spent time in bars, at mexican candle light dinners, in an indian market, at a $140 dinner, and in a hot tub. and lots of time under a down comforter. and i spent 70 minutes with an indian man named daniel who rubbed my shoulders so hard they were sore the next day. and he said i carry a lot of sadness in my shoulder blades and around my heart chakra.

i said, that's funny. i don't feel sad. he said it doesn't have to be right. either way, with all that huffing and puffing he did, i'm sure he blew all the sadness right outta me.

and now i'm home and tucker's VERY glad to see me. this week's gonna suck. work is guaranteed to be nuts tomorrow. got 3 kids to find homes for before 5 p.m. then tues morning bright and early it's off to tulsa for mandatory training where i'll be staying til wednesday. yes, i'll be spending valentines day in the doubletree all by myself.

anyways, guess i should jump in the shower and put off unpacking some more. everybody try to take a deep breath and have a good week.

i'll be seein ya around.

TGIF! :)

It's a cold, breezy day here in Santa Fe. We woke up bright and early this morning and headed down to the Plaza for breakfast and shopping. It's cool because they had an entire street lined with men and women wrapped up to their noses in Indian blankets selling art jewelry on the sidewalks. Shops and cafes everywhere. We visited a church that was build in 1618 and we're going back at 5:15 for mass. I've never been to mass before so this should be interesting. Thank goodness confession's not til tomorrow. I've still got 24 hours to live it up.

Who knows what the rest of this weekend holds, but this has been an incredible trip. Got lots of good pictures I'll upload when I get home. Be safe and have fun this weekend!!

Happy Thursday from Santa Fe! ;)

What a great trip this is turning out to be. I had to pinch myself last night, felt like I was in the movies. After we checked into the hotel and laid around for a while, we decided to go explore the town and find a good place for dinner. We ended up in the Plaza at a little place called Los Mayos. The whole restaurant was lit entirely by candle light and a mariachi band (guitar and bass player) serenaded us all night long. There was wine, a couple at the table next to us on their honeymoon, and complimentary Flan, the server's grandmother's secret recipe. It was the most beautiful dinner I've ever had in my entire life. Then we headed back to the room with more wine and my Eagle Scout got a refresher course in building fires with less than flammable logs. It burned out in about 10 minutes and then we were in the dark. And that was ok too. :)

He's currently out rounding up something for breakfast while I'm typing to you from under a down comforter. I am officially a spoiled bitch. And I'm loving every second of it. I've got a massage appointment at 1, and we have dinner reservations for a 4 course meal tonight at 6:30.

I'm not coming back. Will someone volunteer to ship Tucker up here? Please?

There's just something about being naked, spread eagled in front of your best friend while she's ripping hair out of your skin. We've bonded. :) Let's hope I don't have to go through that again any time soon.

I'm over it.

Anyway, guess everybody's got the cold/sinus/flu/pneumonia circus that's come to town. It feels like somebody's been pumping air into my left sinus cavity and it's about to blow. It's even making my teeth hurt.

Anyway, just working and running a few errands today before the 8 hour drive to lovely Santa Fe tomorrow. Gonna try to take pics and post them while we're there. So just for a preview... THIS is where we'll be staying.

And as a side note, I know I'm in love and all, but I still heart Dave Ray. There's something about his honesty and his self-disparagement that I find extremely endearing. And dear, you'd never catch me reading Jane Austin. Although, those long cigarettes and filters are enticing.

Later Gators!

Hola.

It's Monday morning and I'm feeling slightly better than I did this weekend. I sneezed 54 times on Saturday. 3 times Sunday. Once so far today. The weekend was fun. Mom came up to see me and we ran around shopping and picking up little odds and ends. I finally bought a frame for my Topo Luster numbered postcards and now they are on display in my hallway. Quite nice. I also bought a little going away present for my best long haired guy friend, in the form of The Zombie Survival Guide, which is full of handy dandy tricks on warding off the undead. I thought he might find it useful in Austin.

Halfway watched the superbowl and several movies last night til I went to bed and crashed til 7:45 this morning. The first thought that crossed my mind as I opened my eyes this morning was ONE MORE SLEEP TIL I'M ON VACATION!!!! After tomorrow, my best boy and I will be lounging in front of the fireplace in robes and slippers at the #1 rated Spa in North America according to the Conde Nast Travelers Association. Mmmmm. I'm all about it. It's much needed for both of us. Then next week he'll come back to his rockstar life and I'll come back to 14 days left to get my comps done and turned in. Fabulous.

In the mean time, I'm thinking about going party line and transferring the blog to myspace, but i can't live without my links. So I'm gonna have to find a way to fix that.

Carry on.

Man. Today sucked. But I'm home early, so that's a bonus. It's days like today when I KNOW why I have high blood pressure. This job's gonna be the death of me.

And the cold is back. WTF. I've been fine all week then last night it backed up and ran over me like 14 times. So I'm trying to heavily medicate myself.

Dad called today and wanted to take me and the boyfriend out on the town tonight to Toby Keith's. But since the boyfriend isn't here this weekend, I'll be going solo to see the Plainview kids tonight. I'm sad that my partner in crime won't be along for the ride, because we made a deal if we ever went there, we had to talk in Toby Keith song lines all night. And now it's just not gonna be any fun. I'm pretty sure dad doesn't really know any Toby Keith songs.

Anyways, gotta get some work done on the comps. i want to have one question finished by the time we roll outta town Wednesday morning.

Here's hopin.

Stay safe and let somebody else drive this weekend.

my poor boyfriend.

i had sort of a break down last night. it just came on all at once and he happened to call at the *perfect* time. i guess it's because i had all night to just sit around and think about my life. i looked around at my messy house and thought UGH. i don't even wanna live here. and then contemplated my blood pressure and then my comps and then my problems with procrastination and resulting anxiety.

so after he said i love you more than anything and i don't know what to say but i'll be here for you whatever you need, i called my mom.

she talked me down off the ledge and recounted all of the amazingly fabulous accomplishments i've made in the recent past and reminded me that sometimes it helps to just take a breath and get a more objective opinion on the subject. i'm convinced i have anxiety problems but refuse to be medicated. so i'm going have to work on my coping skills. taking things in bites instead of having to climb the entire mountain today.

so last night i thoroughly cleaned my room before bed. and today after work i cleaned the computer room, which if you've seen it lately, you know it's kitty central. so it was a major undertaking. but i feel better. almost good enough to start *thinking* about my comps.

tomorrow i'll tackle the living room and the dining room, including unpacking christmas presents still in their bags/boxes.

i am woman, hear me roar. and mom's coming to visit saturday/sunday. it'll be good times.

and i'm gonna have to fit in some time with my girl, M. missin' her a lot lately and i've commissioned her for a special project that's gonna HURT. but it's for a good cause. :)

toodles.

shit shit shit

i'm sorry to all of you reading my blog at work. it had to be said.

my comp questions were just emailed to me. here, take a stab at it.

Humanism, behaviorism, and psychodynamic theories all have a role in the human relations field. Briefly describe the basic assumptions regarding the nature of people from each theoretical perspective. Then discuss the advantages and disadvantages of using each perspective when working with people.

i'm gonna need that in 7 pages, double spaced, with 7 references, APA style. then i'll give you 2 more to answer.

i've got 29 days. i suppose this is where being a preacher's daughter comes in really handy. i can BS my way out of any situation. and that's good cuz i haven't the first clue on any of this.

wish me luck!